Let me introduce PTSD Caregiver's husband our newest writer!
Impaired and Violated An introduction from his website,
I'm a veteran of Iraqi Freedom, returning in 2005. I served in Baghdad as a Cavalry Scout, Non-Commissioned officer. I've been diagnosed as 100% disabled with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with Major Depression and Traumatic Brain Injury. I was discharged in 2005 but was also a veteran of an earlier time, spending ten years as an Artillery Officer. I chose to re-enlist for Iraq as an NCO because that's where the greatest need was in the Washington National Guard at the time.
Welcome to PASP, I look forward to reading your story and have great respect for the battle you wage today. Sometimes I think that going back would just make everything so much simpler, but we know that line of thinking is flawed. Life has so many choices and in the battle-zone we had to whittle that down to just one in the blink of an eye. Damn it God! Why so many choices?
In the first two years of coming home I could not go into a grocery store without loosing my mind literally, I would lay in the store floor crying for hours...did that twice before I stopped going to get food....Or I would get lost a Kroger for two hours and my wife would come looking for me...did this twice first before the crying...all the while my wife is trying to get me to let her go with me. I would either end up drunk on the door step later that night or she would find me wandering in the grocery isle...for two freaking hours...wandering and muttering...ALL I could think of in those cyclical moments was "...the lives I took from this earth...I am going to have to pay for that...," or so I made myself pay for the next 15 years.
I just picked up my camera recently, nurturing that creative side again...
Welcome home brother, not matter what keep coming home.
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Jul 12 2010, 10:20 AM
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PTSD, A Soldiers Perspective